The weather of this place is improving so does my mood. I had a talk with P who says that I keep most things by myself and confine to only few people . I don’t talk about an issue with the person I am having some problem. He cited examples of my work place where i try to avoid people whom i have differences rather than sorting those out .
This is true and I definitely agree. Since childhood i have found this is the best way to deal with people who dont try to understand your opinion . Instead of persuading the person by hook and crook , I avoid that person .This was quite easy when you were young. You don't befriend those people, you stay away from them and so it hardly matters what they say and do . But it has started creating a problem at my work place,where I am suppose to work with those people .They can be my colleague or my boss . And as I do , I keep things with myself ,never discuss with them as i get negative vibes whenever i decide to do . Now things get complicated these ways . And i know its my mistake but I get cold feet whenever I decide to talk to these people .I have to learn many things and i will try to open up for more free talks .But as i write this i get a sinking feeling in my heart :( :( :(

Writing

I feel good when I write. Whenever I feel bad I decide to write what ever comes in my mind. It makes me lighter. As it gives me an insight of an issue and thus I have other perspective from which the solution can be seen .

Now I want to write about something good. If I carry out a positive attitude I know things are going to change. Let me just give myself a try to work on this thing.

Carry a smile and positive attitude. Don’t bother about the things what others say about you . You just trust yourself ,think more about the dream and try hard to make it happen .

A fear ...

My day was good yesterday. I went to my mausi’s place . My cousin is getting married and there was a musical program organized for the same.

Its was good, meeting my parents and other relatives. We all head a great time.

Now I feel that there is one goal which is making me so restless and it needs to be achieved soon . I will work on that .

I hope I get success this time :). Its really difficult to start working again and to have confidence in you when you have failed more than once for that task .

I wont tell a lie that I am really scared and when I skip studies a day , I feel more depressed and feel that the task is going away . However if I cant control my fear ,I will work on the daily basis to achieve the task .:)))

HAPPY B'DAY

Today is my b’day and yes ofcourse it’s a big day .

It’s a big day in many sense . I am in my late twenties and I feel big when I consider this age factor otherwise I am quite comfortable with the things.

I don’t look so big and this is a good thing. Today I have decided not to say or think anything negative. There are so many bad things and I should refrain from all such things in order to keep my mood ok .

Things will get better and I will achieve more this year and I know things are going to be alright.

Its really cold ...

I thought after Jan 14,the situation is going to improve. There will be more sunshine and less cold.
However it has become bitter now . Its drizilling and its really cold . In my room I have only one power point , I can have TV+net+radio or I can have the blower ,as its sunday and my TV never shuts so its cold room . I am inside the quilt.
And what happened to my attitude challenge . It went really well till today's morning . Today I was upset .I dont know for what . Yes I know for my higher education which I really want to proceed. But the competition is so tough and this time I really want to do from a good college .
So , I thought my exams date is coming and I am still not in a strict regime. I cried and i was so low ,I called Pradeep and he is the poor fellow to whom I can complain .
He listened patiently and tried to make my mood lightly but I told him in the end only that its my exam that is giving me tension. Its not the exam but there are other things only . i look at my goal list and still found the things that i dreamt when i was in college still in the list .
What the hell i was doing all these 4 years ???
But now I am again dead serious , things are going to be monitored . Laziness is not allowed and for weeks I was thinking of buying Businees world of this week , will be soon possible .
And there are many dreams which I dont want to write in PUBLIC .
I wish to come back to my blog with a very happy attitude.

I will choose my attitude

To have a good attitude is really very difficult . Its really hard to follow and to have it always is a great challenge for me .I am reading a book which says feelings cant be controlled but we can control our attitude . I am a very emotional person and I am always carried away by my feelings and I know my mood keeps swinging . But this line is giving me a motivation to control my attitude.
I am learning to control my attitude and i am succeeding in it .
I read blogs of many people and I can see every one has a dream and plan . It may differ from person to person and so differ their challenges. So , I also have a chanllenge and I would love to complete it soon . I know the delay time in acheiving a masters degree and changing my line is hampering my mood. Infact as the days pass I feel more and more frustrated . I feel that all those hardwork I have done in gaining admission to the good college was not worth .
Anyways I will not think anything about the past but will start again . I have choosen my attitude and its of CHALLENGE and HAPPINESS.

Its cold here

Though I love winters the most off thing about Delhi's winter is fog .
No sunshine :( . Everything is so chaos .There are many difficulties that come because of this .
Difficulty in driving ,dealy flight , traffic jam . Every thing becomes unorganised .

However I have decided that I am not going to let such petty things affect my mood .
I had a great holiday in Mumbai where the weather is so pleasent .
Also I watched the much awaited 3 idiots :) yippiee ..it was so good ,Aamir you rock .
This january will be quite hectic with wedding of my cousin ,engagement of my best friend ,my parents coming and my bday :).