YOGA FOR YOGIS

Planning to become a YOGI ... I told my hubby today that i want to again start my YOGA activities. Its for the purpose of relaxation and for my health issue .

Random

It’s a random post which will be published.

I thought to write about something casual. And I dare to publish this post . I don’t believe in my writing skills. I write plain and boring that’s why I avoid posting. However I always believed that you should do something that’s not in your scope .You should keep working hard and make sure that you get strength to achieve your dreams. Well it will be a random post that will not be an introspection ;).

My country is moving through many changes. After abolishment of License Raj, there has been huge change. The changes are much economical rather than political. India is known for its best brains in the world and if right environment is given to everyone we can make great changes. However the one thing that we don’t have is the attitude. Our attitude is submissive (I am not getting the right word). We lack team work ,we are more egoistic and more divided because of regions . A North India will not work freely and wont trust a South Indian. We have many many issues with us .We all are so much attached with our family that we tend to be selfish when we see the outside person . I think this selfishness is in everyone but we exceed in it .

I believe in seeing a society which is knowledgeable, competitive, united and mature in their thinking. I wont say modern because we need to be mature rather than modern. I love my country very much and I wish to see everyone here having a good life . Few years ago there was only 10% middle class in India ,now the figure is constantly changing. I wish to see the figure increasing and more people moving from above poverty line . However if someone asks me the secret to survive in today’s society, I will say it’s education

Little progress

I am really scared now. There is no one particular reason but my PG. I am dead sure to give my exam this year as I want to start and complete my MBA soon .

Meanwhile extending the date has given me a relief, however I should be motivated. I do something wrong or could not make it will be very difficult for me to accept.

However I am keeping myself optimistic and hope that I learn new things, correct my mistakes and introspect myself during this period.

I will everyday make a plan for myself that will guide me how to move ahead. Also I have few more things :

a)I will try to wake up early 5:30 and try to do little YOGA and meditation .

b)Daily writing the Analysis of Issue and Analysis of an Argument .

c)Make a study schedule for yourself .

d)Read Business news, editorial daily and also note down some important points.

I have to keep introspect and keep checking whether such schedule is really useful or if I can change the some aspect of it .

What makes you achieve your goal ....

A) Positive attitude .
B) Hard work .

Little update

I am still scoring low . Now I have decided to take the whole test and evaluate my weak points. But I have to take this test really seriously . So ,before I do anything I will prepare a ginger tea for myself and then I will solve the questions again .

All I need to do is to concentrate little harder and check the speed also .

I will update my performance in the evening .

I write ...

I think I should update my blog regularly .If I make a certain plan , i should write that in blog. In this way I will keep myself motivated.

Sometimes I feel very embarrassing to share my dreams . I always think if someone from my office reads it then what .

And also, I feel i don’t write to0 good. My topics and language are simple and plain .You know what i always think ,that once I will be free (which i wont) , i will make my blog good .

This is what I always feel and please see how stupid thinking it is :

a) When i will go for a break from this job i.e for my higher studies (which I am nt sure of),I will daily write in blog.

How can I know that I will have enough free time than also.

b) I write so simple and I don’t have good topics.

If I am not going to attempt how can I see how capable I am .Even if I am not , then practice makes everyone perfect and so I will improve.

So , will I ever dare to write freely and write my goals here.

To tell the truth , i am still shy . However I will write about my PG exams preparation.

I have 4+ years of work ex and since last three years, i wanted to go for an MBA.

However I never scored good for any good college ( I really want to study in some good college.)

Also , i work in telecom and I love technology talks’ and technology even though i don’t own any of the gadgets. I want to come back in IT only .

I love to know more about Economy, the business (However I was a science student and never took commerce). At that time I wanted to become a scientist :) and search if life existed else where.

Scores so far....

Till today ,my scores were ok in VA but today they have dropped. I am getting maximum wrongs than right . I still have not completed the target what I have set for today as low scores are not much motivating . Still i wish that i soon learn where I am doing wrong.
All is well at my end . P will soon come to delhi and I hope that i keep continuing my studies as this is the third time I have changed the examination date and don't want to do it again.

The weather of this place is improving so does my mood. I had a talk with P who says that I keep most things by myself and confine to only few people . I don’t talk about an issue with the person I am having some problem. He cited examples of my work place where i try to avoid people whom i have differences rather than sorting those out .
This is true and I definitely agree. Since childhood i have found this is the best way to deal with people who dont try to understand your opinion . Instead of persuading the person by hook and crook , I avoid that person .This was quite easy when you were young. You don't befriend those people, you stay away from them and so it hardly matters what they say and do . But it has started creating a problem at my work place,where I am suppose to work with those people .They can be my colleague or my boss . And as I do , I keep things with myself ,never discuss with them as i get negative vibes whenever i decide to do . Now things get complicated these ways . And i know its my mistake but I get cold feet whenever I decide to talk to these people .I have to learn many things and i will try to open up for more free talks .But as i write this i get a sinking feeling in my heart :( :( :(

Writing

I feel good when I write. Whenever I feel bad I decide to write what ever comes in my mind. It makes me lighter. As it gives me an insight of an issue and thus I have other perspective from which the solution can be seen .

Now I want to write about something good. If I carry out a positive attitude I know things are going to change. Let me just give myself a try to work on this thing.

Carry a smile and positive attitude. Don’t bother about the things what others say about you . You just trust yourself ,think more about the dream and try hard to make it happen .

A fear ...

My day was good yesterday. I went to my mausi’s place . My cousin is getting married and there was a musical program organized for the same.

Its was good, meeting my parents and other relatives. We all head a great time.

Now I feel that there is one goal which is making me so restless and it needs to be achieved soon . I will work on that .

I hope I get success this time :). Its really difficult to start working again and to have confidence in you when you have failed more than once for that task .

I wont tell a lie that I am really scared and when I skip studies a day , I feel more depressed and feel that the task is going away . However if I cant control my fear ,I will work on the daily basis to achieve the task .:)))

HAPPY B'DAY

Today is my b’day and yes ofcourse it’s a big day .

It’s a big day in many sense . I am in my late twenties and I feel big when I consider this age factor otherwise I am quite comfortable with the things.

I don’t look so big and this is a good thing. Today I have decided not to say or think anything negative. There are so many bad things and I should refrain from all such things in order to keep my mood ok .

Things will get better and I will achieve more this year and I know things are going to be alright.

Its really cold ...

I thought after Jan 14,the situation is going to improve. There will be more sunshine and less cold.
However it has become bitter now . Its drizilling and its really cold . In my room I have only one power point , I can have TV+net+radio or I can have the blower ,as its sunday and my TV never shuts so its cold room . I am inside the quilt.
And what happened to my attitude challenge . It went really well till today's morning . Today I was upset .I dont know for what . Yes I know for my higher education which I really want to proceed. But the competition is so tough and this time I really want to do from a good college .
So , I thought my exams date is coming and I am still not in a strict regime. I cried and i was so low ,I called Pradeep and he is the poor fellow to whom I can complain .
He listened patiently and tried to make my mood lightly but I told him in the end only that its my exam that is giving me tension. Its not the exam but there are other things only . i look at my goal list and still found the things that i dreamt when i was in college still in the list .
What the hell i was doing all these 4 years ???
But now I am again dead serious , things are going to be monitored . Laziness is not allowed and for weeks I was thinking of buying Businees world of this week , will be soon possible .
And there are many dreams which I dont want to write in PUBLIC .
I wish to come back to my blog with a very happy attitude.

I will choose my attitude

To have a good attitude is really very difficult . Its really hard to follow and to have it always is a great challenge for me .I am reading a book which says feelings cant be controlled but we can control our attitude . I am a very emotional person and I am always carried away by my feelings and I know my mood keeps swinging . But this line is giving me a motivation to control my attitude.
I am learning to control my attitude and i am succeeding in it .
I read blogs of many people and I can see every one has a dream and plan . It may differ from person to person and so differ their challenges. So , I also have a chanllenge and I would love to complete it soon . I know the delay time in acheiving a masters degree and changing my line is hampering my mood. Infact as the days pass I feel more and more frustrated . I feel that all those hardwork I have done in gaining admission to the good college was not worth .
Anyways I will not think anything about the past but will start again . I have choosen my attitude and its of CHALLENGE and HAPPINESS.

Its cold here

Though I love winters the most off thing about Delhi's winter is fog .
No sunshine :( . Everything is so chaos .There are many difficulties that come because of this .
Difficulty in driving ,dealy flight , traffic jam . Every thing becomes unorganised .

However I have decided that I am not going to let such petty things affect my mood .
I had a great holiday in Mumbai where the weather is so pleasent .
Also I watched the much awaited 3 idiots :) yippiee ..it was so good ,Aamir you rock .
This january will be quite hectic with wedding of my cousin ,engagement of my best friend ,my parents coming and my bday :).